Mother Aya Helped Me Find True Love
**This newsletter is part of a series sharing my experience of my recent Ayahuasca healing journeys in Peru. To read the April part 1 click here, part 2 click here, part 3 click here, and part 4 click here.. To read the August Journey part 1 click here, part 2 click here, and part 3 click here. For two important parts about finding love, this is part 1 and part 2 click here.**
“You should learn Portuguese.”
This is what a friend told me about my now life partner when she saw what I wrote under a video about our connection when we danced and the intimacy we felt together.
He spoke Portuguese. And I didn’t.
When I met Nelson, it wasn’t love at first sight. It was a gradual process of building trust and safety through soulful connection, which led to intimacy and, ultimately, opening up to divine love.
There was something magical there from the beginning. We could both feel it. But after our first dance, we went our separate ways because neither of us was looking for anything.
Here’s the story I’ve been waiting to share. It’s a story about how my journey with Mother Aya opened me up to the love of my life.
I met Nelson at a Kizomba dance class. There was immediate intimacy and connection between us. We felt each other. It was just magical. And we then left class, and that was it.
The following week, he was back in the same class. Later on, he told me he came to look for me so he could dance with me again.
It had been a rough day. I was overloaded and had a hard time letting go from thinking to feeling. When I saw Nelson in class, I could feel his expectation, and it stressed me out. I was a beginner at Kizomba.
That’s a lot of pressure for a beginner.
We started dancing.
“Precisas de relaxar um pouco.”
I understood what he was saying because it was similar to Spanish. He whispered, “You need to relax a little bit.”
He read me so perfectly.
After that, I ran into him every month or so, in dance class and at places where we could dance socially. And every time we danced, we grew closer, whether we liked it or not.
Whenever I posted a video of us dancing on Instagram, everyone would be all over it. The connection and intimacy were so special.
Yet, I didn't see this as anything that could turn into something. He spoke Portuguese. I didn't. I wasn’t sure who he was, and I didn't even know if we had a similar life to make a relationship work.
Things shifted after my Ayahuasca journeys in April. I came to Peru to work on various things. One of them was healing what was blocking me in love.
The maestra assigned me the plant dieta of sigueme sigueme for abundance and love, and of ajosache for cleaning as I prepared my body as a sacred, purified space.
In one of the ceremonies, I asked Mother Aya: “Help me heal what is blocking me in love.” This was my intention for the ceremony.
What came after were beautiful insights that helped me clear what was sabotaging me in love.
I was shown by Mother Aya that I struggled to get attached to someone in a healthy way.
Mother Aya made me feel that someone could receive me as I am, yet I had to receive me first as I am by showing up as my truest full self. And she showed me how to do it.
Sara, the daughter of the maestra, said to me that I needed to believe in love. I had to trust. I needed to have confidence.
Because of my trauma and because I have met so many men who could not meet me emotionally and receive me, I did not believe in love. Meaning I didn't believe that someone could meet me emotionally as I am.
Mother Aya showed me that when my confidence in love goes down, my confidence in business goes down, hurting the flow and abundance of the business. I lose my ability to magnetize.
I learned that my love cycle for a long time was I make a move, fear rejection, lose my confidence and power, feel like something is wrong with me, shrink (and pretend on the outside like I am confident), feel bad and off, and lose my balance.
Mother Aya said to me: “Don't make the person you love be the sun and the moon. Not everything revolves around them. They are not your parent. They are a piece of the puzzle, not the whole puzzle, but a part of the bigger picture.”
And in all honesty, all of these insights were amazing, yet how many times do we get something in our head, and it never shifts even when we understand them?!
This process was so profound because Mother Aya helped me release from the body, with the help of the shamans, what was blocking me, and made me feel it all with my body.
I didn’t just understand it with my mind. Something truly shifted.
And it was after I came back from this retreat that the friend said to me:
“You should learn Portuguese.”
And then it hit me.
Suddenly I noticed Nelson. He was under my nose all along, but until Mother Aya shifted something in me, I did not see the potential.
Funny enough, like most of our high-achieving women, I initially went into the retreat wanting to focus on my business. And then, if I had time, I would seek guidance from Mother Aya about love.
(If you always put business before love, the upcoming retreat might be the perfect opportunity to focus on yourself and the love you deep down desire but don’t believe that you can have).
I became so much softer and more open to the possibility of love after the Aya retreat.
I could tell something shifted. He had been there the entire time. But it wasn’t until I healed the foundation through plant medicine that I was ready to receive.
Mother Aya helped me create my Divine Connection.
And then the rest is history.
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If you are ready to write your own love story, our next Aya retreat is around the corner. ✨
I’m taking 10 people with me on the upcoming exclusive, transformative Aya Somatic Healing retreat to the healing center in Peru that I go to.
If you’re feeling called, let’s explore this powerful journey together.
This could be one of the most profound life-changing experiences of your life.
To explore further, please send me a message,and I’ll share all the details with you.💗
With love,
Chen